03.29.26

To a degree, I believe isolation is good for me. I have noticed when I'm around people that

I desire love and acknowledgment from, I tend to behave in a way that screams 'I'M AM HUMAN TOO.

PLEASE TRY TO UNDERSTAND ME' and I slightly put aside my own social restrictions and annoyances

to appear somewhat 'normal'. Of course, I fail at that since I am incapable of putting on a mask

in front of others, but my point still stands. It's almost like I have lost a really important

piece of myself to a certain extent, so I don't come off as 'corny' or a 'mood killer', but why

should I care? True friendship and love comes from patience, understanding, and consideration.

I shouldn't feel as though I have to simplify myself in order to be palatable to people I want

to be around. Isolation reminds me who I am, and I need to remember who I am, for that will show

who is actually worth the effort. I'm a difficult person, but I deserve to be seen and understood

just like anybody else.