08.4.25

Deep down I yearn for something meaningful, but the idea

of getting close to anyone in any way, shape, or form

repulses me to my core. I'm a background character in everyone's lives.

It has always been that way, and I'm convinced that it will stay that way.

When I was younger, one of the reasons I wanted to die was my inability

to connect to other people and people's seemingly unwavering dislike

and hatred towards me. I would always ask myself the same question over

and over again:"how does one go on with life when you can't experience

basic and important human things such as having friendships or a

romantic relationship?" sometimes I still ask that same question.